Okay, so this is everything in a nutshell. We have not posted recently because we've had a lot going on. Mom and I have been discussing off and on putting the shop on the market. In August we or rather I committed to a decision; we would list the shop for sale. So, I went to a realtor that had sold the shop 3 times over, put all the paperwork in. The next day the business that was underneath us made us an offer we couldn't refuse. They would take over our rent for the space. This was the only thing we were really worried about. In the last month I had used close to half my personal paycheck to cover the bills for the shop, I reached my breaking point. Plan changed and we decided to close a shop that had been in the town for over 30 years. We cried for last three weeks we were open and I felt like such a failure.
In May I had taken a job I knew in my heart I shouldn't have said yes to. On top of being upset about how things were going with the shop, I was completely miserable in my job. The week before closing our doors at the shop, I quit. I took a part time job that paid way less than my full time job. I was that unhappy, I wanted out so badly. So that is everything that happened in the last few weeks of August. Plus I started medical massage school in September. So far I love it! I am not as stressed and I feel like I'm waking up. I'm realizing how much I missed in the three year fog. You know what though, I don't regret buying the shop, I do wish things had been better economically, but that was a risk that my parents and Jarvis and I took. We would NEVER have been able to accomplish what we had without my mom and dad, NO WAY. They were the main reason we lasted as long as we did.
So know everyone keeps asking us, "what are you doing with your spare time?" I have to chuckle at this question because we don't really have that much more spare time. My mom's house has one roomed filled with product that we have yet to finish going through, it's October and I have finally caught up on the large pile of laundry and the never ending pile of dishes, my home is slowly but surely getting cleaned and put in order and we are very close to finally starting on the upstairs floors. So I have SOME spare time, but not a ton. The hardest part is finding things to do with myself. The last three years I have worked 7 days a week for most weeks. I felt stressed 99% of the time, but I always had something to do and somewhere to go. My life was work and shop. I was tired most days. I'm now finding that in order to feel like I'm contributing to the household I have to keep up on laundry, dishes, and learning to cook. Those are not all bad things and for the last week I've felt like I'm on my way to feeling more stable. Thank you to God, my supportive and loving husband, and of course my wonderful parents, for being my life lines for the last three years. And this is hopefully the start of more entries and more projects getting done around this wonderful home. Here is to a second chance and starting over (I am back to square one in regards to my career).
